I am everything I fear at night...

I am indeed a black sheep and inevitably a shepherd as well. I am not a midwife in the practice of obstetrics. I am a father. I am a mother. I am the present and eventual child. I will give birth to my own ideas. Only in time and practice will the wisdom of a grandfather render you untouchable. Every moment you breathe is either a moment of thought, a moment of action, or a moment of rest. Action without thought is foolish, thought without action is to be a palaver, and rest without either is futility, as is either without rest. A balance of self-interdiction and inspired motivation is needed everyday for the purpose you are seeking.